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Porcupine Tree — Disappear
Album: Recordings
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7.4

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Released: 1991
Length: 3:42
Plays (last 30 days): 0
We made the world believe we didn't care
We gate crashed parties and just stood and stared
We moved to London and stayed in all year
Standing next to you I disappear

You made a choice for us to live it up
I've got a voice inside me saying give it up
Let's get out of here, let's find a new career
You be famous and I'll disappear

I erase myself again
I erase myself again
I erase myself again

I erase myself again

I need security, you favour chance
I ponder everything while you advance
You bring the world to me and I just sneer
In your shadow I disappear

I erase myself again
I erase myself again
(I'm here)
I erase myself again
(I'm here, you're never standing still)
(I'm here)
I erase myself again
(I'm here, you're never standing still)

I'm here, I'm here, you're never standing still
I'm here, I'm here, you're never standing still
I'm here, I'm here, you're never standing still
I'm here, I'm here, you're never standing still
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I love many of Porcupine Tree's and Steven Wilson' B-side releases.

Other artists could have built decent careers on these cutting floor recordings.  
 pd2112 wrote:

These guys are brilliant...hope new PT material coming soon!



It took over a decade but I reckon the Closure/Continuation album is pretty decent.
 eileenomurphy wrote:



I DISAGREE!!! HE BUTCHERED YES!!!  EDDIE OFFORD DID A FAR SUPERIOR JOB WITH THE ORIGINAL MIX!!!!



Absolutely! After hearing his take on Yes I couldn't bring myself to search out anything else he remastered.
 3Chords wrote:

Steven Wilson is an amazing guy. Check out his remixes of classic albums by Yes, King Crimson, Jethro Tull and yes, Chicago! Sublime....and faithful to the original mix at the same time.

https://www.soundonsound.com/p...




I DISAGREE!!! HE BUTCHERED YES!!!  EDDIE OFFORD DID A FAR SUPERIOR JOB WITH THE ORIGINAL MIX!!!!
Kinda sounds like Seal....  
Steven Wilson is an amazing guy. Check out his remixes of classic albums by Yes, King Crimson, Jethro Tull and yes, Chicago! Sublime....and faithful to the original mix at the same time.

https://www.soundonsound.com/p...
 bam23 wrote:

Musicians and other artists are known to deny things such as influences that are rather obvious. If indeed he is not a Genesis fan, maybe he chooses musicians to play with who are fans (I don't believe this is an explanation). There are PT and Wilson solo songs that borrow so heavily from early Genesis that it seems senseless to pretend that the influences are not in effect. Still, we listen to the music and not the interviews, as a general rule.



He's a big fan of Cardiacs, whom some muso journo once called a cross between Pixies and early Genesis. So there are always through lines available, without having to be a direct fan.
 stevesaw wrote:
 
I  also discovered PT through RP. and Elbow, Shpongle, Alt-J, Goyte, Younger Brother, Chemical Brothers - and those are just my favorites!

Carbon Leaf, Republic Tigers, Danny Gatton (by extension Lenny Breau), Willy and Lobo...
c.

 westslope wrote:


Interesting comment.  I have often thought of Blackfield, Wilson's side project with Aviv Geffen, as more easily accessible, poppy Genesis.

Wilson has stated in interview that he was not a fan of Genesis.    Then he has also stated that the was not a big fan of the Beatles but when I listen to Porcupine Tree's Lightbulb Sun and Even Less, I hear mid-60s Beatles all over it.  
 
Musicians and other artists are known to deny things such as influences that are rather obvious. If indeed he is not a Genesis fan, maybe he chooses musicians to play with who are fans (I don't believe this is an explanation). There are PT and Wilson solo songs that borrow so heavily from early Genesis that it seems senseless to pretend that the influences are not in effect. Still, we listen to the music and not the interviews, as a general rule.
Upped my rating to an 8 from 7.
Got to hear this on a better sound system.
 Burkhardi wrote:
Bill, Thanks for introducing me to Porcupine Tree and also not playing the sames songs from them over and over, you have a great selection of their offering that you play and go a great time mixing them up. May have been as early as 2005 that I head them from RP that I recall.
THANKS!
I  also discovered PT through RP. and Elbow, Shpongle, Alt-J, Goyte, Younger Brother, Chemical Brothers - and those are just my favorites!

 Burkhardi wrote:
Bill, Thanks for introducing me to Porcupine Tree and also not playing the sames songs from them over and over, you have a great selection of their offering that you play and go a great time mixing them up. May have been as early as 2005 that I head them from RP that I recall.
THANKS!
 

So True! I remember the 1st Porcupine Tree song Arriving Somewhere Not Here... many years ago and what I continue to hear... still puts a smile on my face
Bill, Thanks for introducing me to Porcupine Tree and also not playing the sames songs from them over and over, you have a great selection of their offering that you play and go a great time mixing them up. May have been as early as 2005 that I head them from RP that I recall.
THANKS!
 WhiteWater wrote:
I thought for a moment that this was early Genesis which I had somehow never heard.
 

Interesting comment.  I have often thought of Blackfield, Wilson's side project with Aviv Geffen, as more easily accessible, poppy Genesis.

Wilson has stated in interview that he was not a fan of Genesis.    Then he has also stated that the was not a big fan of the Beatles but when I listen to Porcupine Tree's Lightbulb Sun and Even Less, I hear mid-60s Beatles all over it.  
{#Drummer}
That bass line
 coloradojohn wrote:
It's hard to find the next "Pink Floyd" of this era! Charlatans do come close sometimes, but it's really hard to top PT in this trippy regard

 
Indeed! {#Cheers}
I thought for a moment that this was early Genesis which I had somehow never heard.
So outstanding!
It's hard to find the next "Pink Floyd" of this era! Charlatans do come close sometimes, but it's really hard to top PT in this trippy regard
I can`t help it. Every song of PT is so special and musically superiour. These guys are just great musicians. 9 for me!
Perfect way to start the weekend!

{#Cheers} 
I am hoping that if I continue to post non stop on Radio Paradise my plea for Porcupine Tree to get back together, they will finally take notice and fulfill my dream.   Yes, SW's solo work is genius, but I prefer his work with PT.  

And.....

papajoe_aiea wrote:
Steven Wilson is one dark cat.  He even out-sads Roger Waters.  Someone pass him a happy pill... 

Ha, very funny.  "Out-sads" Roger Waters!  I will actively seek out an opportunity to use the phrase "Out-sads" in conversation at work today.
 pd2112 wrote:
These guys are brilliant...hope new PT material coming soon!

 
Unlikely.  But the the last two Steven Wilson albums/CDs are nothing short of extraordinary and brilliant.

Recordings now costs less than a gazillion bucks, is ordered via Amazon.ca and should arrive sometime during the month of June.
These guys are brilliant...hope new PT material coming soon!
{#Wave}{#Arrowd}
Gorgeous.

Hi Wing!  {#Wave}




Deadwing wrote:
So gorgeous!!

Hi Slope!!

 


A sound worth the 60's!     {#Daisy}    {#Drummer}   {#Motor}
 smackiepipe wrote:


2000? Try 1987!

 
Although Wikipedia lists 1987 as the start date, On the Sunday of Life didn't come out til 1991. That really signifies (no pun intended) the beginning of this band. And this album was all Steven Wilson anyway so if you included the full band, it would be "Up the Downstair" in 93. Still alot earlier than 2000 which was 8 albums later! Over half their discography.

This version of Disappear is with the full band, there is an earlier version that Steven did solo that really has more power and energy, especially on the long refrain at the end. It was available on the European version of Lightbulb Sun, and later on Steven Wilson's MySpace page. Worth a listen if you are a hardcore "Tree" fan like me.
 MiracleDrug wrote:
THIS is what Genesis could have sounded like if Peter and Steve stuck around and they told Phil to STFU and play your drums, mate....
 
Limpopoking wrote:

{#Clap}... and let's all just acknowledge... he can play drum, but I guess it didn't pay well enough
 
I heard it was a fear of spontaneous combustion.
 MiracleDrug wrote:
THIS is what Genesis could have sounded like if Peter and Steve stuck around and they told Phil to STFU and play your drums, mate....
 
{#Clap}... and let's all just acknowledge... he can play drum, but I guess it didn't pay well enough
 j.k.NatureDeficit wrote:

 


 papajoe_aiea wrote:
Steven Wilson is one dark cat.  He even out-sads Roger Waters.  Someone pass him a happy pill...

...and yet I love this music.  Wonder what it says about me.

 
 
i like this comment a lot.

i love it (this music), too. 
 Are uo asking whether this is new order?
renegade_X wrote:
Wait, this version is different, never heard it before. Is this newer or older?
 


Steven Wilson is one dark cat.  He even out-sads Roger Waters.  Someone pass him a happy pill...

...and yet I love this music.  Wonder what it says about me.

 
Starting to really like these guys,,
Wait, this version is different, never heard it before. Is this newer or older?
So gorgeous!!

Hi Slope!!
 gemtag wrote:

Thanks for the public whipping. I deserve it I guess.
 

buddy gemtag:   "public whipping"?

 

Man I would have put you in a public stockade and invited all the farm teams to throw both soft and hard fruit at you. 

 

Tsk, tsk.    In the spirit of Easter, please post images of the flagellation wounds.  


How long


 smackiepipe wrote:


2000? Try 1987!
 
Thanks for the public whipping. I deserve it I guess.
 gemtag wrote:
These guys have been around since 2000? Where have I been? How come I've never heard of PT before?

I need to leave my cave more often.  
 

2000? Try 1987!

These guys have been around since 2000? Where have I been? How come I've never heard of PT before?

I need to leave my cave more often.  
 MiracleDrug wrote:
THIS is what Genesis could have sounded like if Peter and Steve stuck around and they told Phil to STFU and play your drums, mate....
 

OMFG that is funny!
Sweet Jesus I love Porcupine Tree!
 MiracleDrug wrote:
THIS is what Genesis could have sounded like if Peter and Steve stuck around and they told Phil to STFU and play your drums, mate....
 
me thinks this is better.  Good tune too

THIS is what Genesis could have sounded like if Peter and Steve stuck around and they told Phil to STFU and play your drums, mate....
 zaknafein wrote:
This demo is available now for free download on SW's soundcloud page!

linky

Edit: and the SC version is in fact in stereo, and sounds MUCH better than this version.

 
I uploaded this version and it was sadly turned down. The history behind this song off the 97 track is that Steven did all the instruments. It was released on the European version of Lightbulb Sun but never made it across the pond.

The intensity at the end chorus is so much better than what we are listening to in Recordings. It shows the true angst of Steven as he copes with loss and finality in a lost relationship. I love the 97 version so much more for this intensity.

{#Yes} life is better with The Tree  lattalo wrote:
 geordiezimmerman wrote:
A band I just don't get if i'm honest. I've tried a few times to listen to them, in different moods but they never do it for me.
 

Man I feel for you, a life without the Porcupine Tree is no good.  The best
music in a generation.

 


This demo is available now for free download on SW's soundcloud page!

linky

Edit: and the SC version is in fact in stereo, and sounds MUCH better than this version.

Nice!
 christopherwoods wrote:

Is this why it sounds really scratchy and very obviously mono? (never really investigated PT's back catalogue in great depth so don't have much knowledge of provenance of particular tracks)

 
I think so - the (much shorter) version on Recordings sounds a lot better (and very obviously stereo). However, I find this demo version also quite appealing. Fascinating how some song ideas evolve.


 themotion wrote:
This version is actually found on Recordings II; Disappear (Demo 2, Apr 1997)

 
Is this why it sounds really scratchy and very obviously mono? (never really investigated PT's back catalogue in great depth so don't have much knowledge of provenance of particular tracks)

Jimminy Cricket Cracker!  Another amazing PT piece.  I'm inspired yet again.
This song has a VERY SIMILAR guitar riff to the Live song T.B.D. from years ago.. he even sounds like the lead singer a bit. Catchy though
 wisemily wrote:
Disappear.  PT's jewel - or do I yearn for it because it's only on the Recordings album that is almost unattainable?  OK, it is on the reissued Lightbulb Sun, but only in 5.1 which won't play on my equipment.  How, oh how, do I get my very own Disappear?? 
 
Good news, Recordings was re-issued in September. Get thee over to Amazon!


 geordiezimmerman wrote:
A band I just don't get if i'm honest. I've tried a few times to listen to them, in different moods but they never do it for me.
 

Man I feel for you, a life without the Porcupine Tree is no good.  The best
music in a generation.



I wish I could give this song a 20, soooooo good!
Disappear.  PT's jewel - or do I yearn for it because it's only on the Recordings album that is almost unattainable?  OK, it is on the reissued Lightbulb Sun, but only in 5.1 which won't play on my equipment.  How, oh how, do I get my very own Disappear?? 

PS - I'm going to see them Saturday night at the Fillmore in Miami Beach.  Again.  Thanks for coming south-er, closer to home, guys.

This version is actually found on Recordings II; Disappear (Demo 2, Apr 1997)

 Deadwing wrote:
My only regret in life is that there is never enough time to listen to music.

 
I hear you.

A band I just don't get if i'm honest. I've tried a few times to listen to them, in different moods but they never do it for me.
 Canlistener wrote:
Rush are big fans of PT and have played their music before Rush concerts.  
 
I read an interview with Alex where he mentioned PT as a cool band. I saw Rush their last tour and I see PT tonight!!


Rush are big fans of PT and have played their music before Rush concerts.  
 Deadwing wrote:
My only regret in life is that there is never enough time to listen to music.

 
My only regret is that it ends.

Essence of Rush....love it.

Doesn't this song occupy a unique sonic space?

 

=> 10  (what took me so long?)


Just checking to be sure this one is already Rated @ a 10 -  Yup  - Phew didn't wanna miss an opportunity :)
Simply stated, this band understands music and how it should be made.  I find myself listening to every bar to hear where it will lead, and it always leads somewhere fine.     

Deadwing, You crack us up too.

 

BTW (referring to an earlier post mine), this household loves Richard Barbieri's solo material.  Can listen to it cranked up or as pleasant background/mood music or dinner party music for older guests.

This song reminds me of .....  The Strawbs?   some early PF?   Something from the British Isles for sure.

 



 fredoki wrote:
Recordings album must be re release in few months
 
I never knew it existed in the first place, and I'm a PT fan. They have one hell of a long and occasionally obscure discography.

Recordings album must be re release in few months
One of these days I'm going to try to track down this demo.
 Deadwing wrote:
My only regret in life is that there is never enough time to listen to music.

 

Sometimes I crack myself up   LOL
My only regret in life is that there is never enough time to listen to music.

 mgkiwi wrote:
I see this album is for sale on Amazon for $193.88 - is that right. Is it a collectors item - f***. They're good but......
 

If you are computer savey enough which I believe most RP listeners are. If you have the right computer program, this CD and many others can be obtained by download. Much cheaper than $193.88 !!!!!!!!
 fredriley wrote:
Another PT song I've never heard before from an album I've never seen before - they must have some discography. Good stuff as ever, a little more mellow and less grungey than their later material in Deadwing and Fear of a Blank Planet. 7 from the Nottingham jury, and once again a big thanks to Becky and Bill for introducing me to this stunning band.
 
Nicely stated!  Agree!


Hey ! I recognize that voice..
Typically wonderful..............
Rather Floyd-esque, I like.

Nice to hear this on a damp, cool west coast morning.

The Porcupine Tree Sampler 2008 CD arrived in the mail last week from Burningshed, UK.  Interesting solo and colloboration material by all individual band members.

Still checking it out.  So far I seem to like the Barbieri and Edwin material the best.




I like this alot...and the lyrics.
I would have never heard of PT unless I joined RP.  Now they are one of my favorites and I can't get enough.  Thanks Bill, send me a Chumby!
I need to search around and try to find this demo. The album version is one of my favorites, and I think I like this one even better.

 westslope wrote:

mgkiwi,

The DVD on the recent re-release of Lightbulb Sun has Disappear.  Much cheaper.


 
I have that but never played the DVD, thanks for the info.

 fredriley wrote:
.....  and once again a big thanks to Becky and Bill for introducing me to this stunning band.
 
Yes, indeed, from a lot of us!


mgkiwi,

The DVD on the recent re-release of Lightbulb Sun has Disappear.  Much cheaper.


I see this album is for sale on Amazon for $193.88 - is that right. Is it a collectors item - f***. They're good but......
 Deadwing wrote:
Well Lightbulb Sun was his definitive "That Bitch Stomped On My Heart And Now I'm Going To Vent" era Feel So Low anyone?
 

Once upon a time.

So I understand that Steven Wilson wants to get married and have children.  Given the work ethic, I hope his future spouse is ready to spend tonnes of time alone.  hehe



Stunning band.

Well put!


 fredriley wrote:
Another PT song I've never heard before from an album I've never seen before - they must have some discography. Good stuff as ever, a little more mellow and less grungey than their later material in Deadwing and Fear of a Blank Planet. 7 from the Nottingham jury, and once again a big thanks to Becky and Bill for introducing me to this stunning band.
 
I'll second that - why for why have they never made it big in the UK - strange, perhaps it's choice!

Another PT song I've never heard before from an album I've never seen before - they must have some discography. Good stuff as ever, a little more mellow and less grungey than their later material in Deadwing and Fear of a Blank Planet. 7 from the Nottingham jury, and once again a big thanks to Becky and Bill for introducing me to this stunning band.
I really enjoy the lead guitar in this version  {#Guitarist}
Obscure trainspottery fact: My CD is number 00948 of 20,000.
9 => 10 !!
I really like this song and do not have it on my Lightbulb Sun CD.
You have the new LBS and Disappear is not on the bonus 5.1 disc? Message me if you don't have a copy of this song- I'll get it to you It's too good to not have.
Steve sounds so desparate, so down trodden
Well Lightbulb Sun was his definitive "That Bitch Stomped On My Heart And Now I'm Going To Vent" era Feel So Low anyone?
I really like this song and do not have it on my Lightbulb Sun CD.
this is a different version from what I have O_o Cool though!
This sounds a lot like Thomas Dolby in many parts. Not that that's a bad thing...
horstman wrote:
Okay, raped is the wrong word. How about ripped off. Happy now? And yes, I will buy all the rereleased, remastered albums when they become available. Just bought a double set of Stupid Dream and it sounds soo good on the cd player in the car (rather than being force fed through the ipod). Still like Disappear on Lightbulb Sun better. Steve sounds so desparate, so down trodden.
Just bought Lightbulb Sun from Burning Shed, PTs online music store. It is remastered in 5.1 surround as well as remastered stereo. So I do support my favorite band. But I still don't like getting ripped off by Itunes or the record industry in general!
westslope wrote:
Raped!?!! You have clearly never been raped. Wrong word my friend. horstman, sounds like good ol' ordinary homo economicus behaviour to me. hehe Since Napster closed down many moons ago, I do not download pirated music from the web. Lazy? Chicken? A deeper sense of respect for intellectual/artistic property rights? Given the opportunities to procur pirated copies, I am amazed that second hand out-of-production Porcupine Tree CDs go for such high prices, e.g., over US$100. Most buyers could be accumulating as collector items. I wonder how many turned down opportunities to buy/download for cheaper elsewhere? horstman, If you buy the official, legal versions of the reissued CDs when they come out, you'll get cookies and milk and God will foregive you. Salvation awaits! westslope --Always be nice to the customer!
Okay, raped is the wrong word. How about ripped off. Happy now? And yes, I will buy all the rereleased, remastered albums when they become available. Just bought a double set of Stupid Dream and it sounds soo good on the cd player in the car (rather than being force fed through the ipod). Still like Disappear on Lightbulb Sun better. Steve sounds so desparate, so down trodden.
Really, you might as well just give every Porcupine Tree at minimum, an 8, and call it a day.
Just as usual, quite interesting! A 8 for me!
Special indeed..prickelpit96 wrote:
They often use to play the drums in a special way. Like that!
I recently had a fellow PT fan offer to send me a burned copy of Recordings. I did take him up on it- that was the only PT release that I didn't have. Normally I would never do such a thing- I am a firm believer in the artists getting paid for their work. I'll be honest with you- I don't think this one will be re-released (contrary to official statements). I've heard that they are including Disappear, Buying New Soul, and In Formaldehyde on the reissue of Lightbulb Sun in May (these are the 3 best tracks on Recordings)... Don't hold your breath on this one being re-released anytime soon. I could be wrong though!
They often use to play the drums in a special way. Like that!
Lovely.
rrowdies wrote:
Yeah, holy Genesis. Personally I thought they were going to break into 'Ripples' at least twice. LLDonB also tried to get there too.
Steven Wilson lists "all 70s art rock" as a major influence, and this is the band with a song entitled "Mellotron Scratch" after all... May be why I like them so much!
horstman wrote:
....... Now I know that these guys are ripping off artists (yes, I heard it all before you accusers of me being a thief) but this is the ONLY way to get this music without ME getting raped. ......
Raped!?!! You have clearly never been raped. Wrong word my friend. horstman, sounds like good ol' ordinary homo economicus behaviour to me. hehe Since Napster closed down many moons ago, I do not download pirated music from the web. Lazy? Chicken? A deeper sense of respect for intellectual/artistic property rights? Given the opportunities to procur pirated copies, I am amazed that second hand out-of-production Porcupine Tree CDs go for such high prices, e.g., over US$100. Most buyers could be accumulating as collector items. I wonder how many turned down opportunities to buy/download for cheaper elsewhere? horstman, If you buy the official, legal versions of the reissued CDs when they come out, you'll get cookies and milk and God will foregive you. Salvation awaits! westslope --Always be nice to the customer!
Deadwing wrote:
Well I just bought a Greek EP off of eBay that has "Disappear" on it. As soon as it gets here I'll give it a listen and let you know if it's the same version. And alas, Recordings is the one PT album I don't have. If SW pushes it back much farther I guess I'll just have to cave and pay the bendover price
I know it sacrilegious but I just downloaded ALL the out of print Porcupine Tree Albums on AllofMP3.com. Now I know that these guys are ripping off artists (yes, I heard it all before you accusers of me being a thief) but this is the ONLY way to get this music without ME getting raped. Needless to say, Recordings is an awesome album. But Disappear is soo much better on Lightbulb Sun.
davin wrote:
Would LOVE to see these guys live.
What about https://www.porcupinetree.com/tour.cfm ? ...
Pyro wrote:
I'd have to say that it's NOT worth over $135 (Amazon). Limited edition numbered and I assume now out of print. I'm a PT freak (thanks RP for yet ANOTHER artist I had never heard of), but I don't think I'd spend that kind of money on anything they did....
Recordings is due for reissue in 2008, so there's no reason to pay the extravagant prices people ask for it.
johkir wrote:
This really sounds like it belongs on Genesis' Lamb Lies Down on Broadway. Kind of a modern interpretation of one of those great tracks! I Likeee
Yeah, holy Genesis. Personally I thought they were going to break into 'Ripples' at least twice. LLDonB also tried to get there too.
pinto wrote:
I'm an iTunes buyer as well. With three kids and all that that entails I can't afford to buy too many CD's just on the basis of one good song that I've heard from a particular CD, so I buy a lot of single songs from iTunes. So we ask you, faithful RP listeners, is this CD worth buying?
I'd have to say that it's NOT worth over $135 (Amazon). Limited edition numbered and I assume now out of print. I'm a PT freak (thanks RP for yet ANOTHER artist I had never heard of), but I don't think I'd spend that kind of money on anything they did....
jjbix wrote:
my local borders had zero PT CDs in stock, sacrilegious!!!
Borders = Clear Channel. I bought my PT cds at Streetlight Records which is locally owned.
Soon you will be hooked like so many of us. ajamison wrote:
Wow this is fantastic....I've never heard of these guys before! Thanks RP!