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I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm being honest
It might've been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (fly)
So I stepped off the golden, mm
Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried)
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you're here
They don't deserve you"
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
It could've been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you're here
They don't deserve you"
If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
"everything i wanted" she responds.
"I like that one too" I say, as I bring it up on Spotify on the kitchen speakers. "Dad, don't play that song. It's too sad".
"It is, but it's also hopeful".
We listen to the song, and have a meaningful conversation about self-esteem and suicide and sharing feelings with those you trust. I'm sure anyone with daughters can attest that meaningful conversations at that age dont' come often.
I would have not have ever heard this song if it wasn't for Radio Paradise. This conversation would not have happened.
Thank you William and crew. Forever grateful.
ps. I also played the Interrupters cover of "Bad Guy" and we had a laugh when I showed them a video of me 4 rows in at their concert. And now they know about ska. Couldn't have asked for a better lunch.
Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
unique, just like everybody else.
She was suicidal and deeply depressed... her dream was that she died -- getting everything she wanted ("not what you'd think")
She went to her brother and they crafted this amazing song....
An anthem to suffering and survival and sibling support.
https://www.nickiswift.com/347...
Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
Buh, she has a team and companies like Chanel working on her image.
bouncy
melodics and harmonics are sweet
She looks very happy.
I'm 66 and agree with this comment. I like it.
kids these days ...
I'm 73 years old, and this music isn't my cup of tea, but i'm not complaining. However, you sound just like the adults of my youth who complained about that LOUD rock and roll noise with the lyrics that you couldn't understand.
I'm 66 and agree with this comment. I like it.
I'm 73 years old, and this music isn't my cup of tea, but i'm not complaining. However, you sound just like the adults of my youth who complained about that LOUD rock and roll noise with the lyrics that you couldn't understand.
You damn well NAILED it!!!!! Like this one more than the vocoder mangled earlier toons. Not gonna buy an album just yet - but this is eminently listenable and thus perfect for RP and our collective musical enhancement
I tried again to see if I could understand anything that she "sang" in this song and all it seems to be is mumbling. I do not get why her "music" is popular in the least.
I'm 73 years old, and this music isn't my cup of tea, but i'm not complaining. However, you sound just like the adults of my youth who complained about that LOUD rock and roll noise with the lyrics that you couldn't understand.
If you're having that much trouble understanding the words (any more than any other singer, anyway), perhaps the pebbles are in your ears.
Zing1
My teen girls love Billie, so I've followed her music for awhile. There's no question she and her brother are very talented. The snap judgment on her singing style is shortsighted. It does help to listen through earbuds or a decent sound system. It's very subtle but beautiful, in depth musical arrangements. As she's evolving, her voice is beginning to remind me of the other Billie... Ms Holiday. I think her acclaim is well deserved.
I'm finding the talent isn't translating to enjoyability. Not enough to PSD, but not enamored at all.
Is she actually singing words or just sounds? She needs to get all the pebbles out of her mouth before she starts singing.
If you're having that much trouble understanding the words (any more than any other singer, anyway), perhaps the pebbles are in your ears.
"How Billie Eilish Rode Teenage Weirdness to Stardom" by Jonah Weiner was in the
"The Music Issue," NYT, 3/15/2020. Here are the first three paragraphs:
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Sometime during the night of Sept. 4, 2018, Billie Eilish took her own life — in a dream. “I jumped off a building,” she recalled recently. What was most alarming about it, as she looked back, was how little it alarmed her. “I was in a really bad place mentally,” Eilish said; the dream struck her less as a nightmare than as a grimly alluring fantasy. The next day, she approached her older brother, Finneas O’Connell, a songwriter and producer, and told him about it. They have collaborated on every piece of music she has put out, and she presented the dream to him as possible inspiration for a new song.
Eilish, whose full name is Billie Eilish Pirate Baird O’Connell, was raised in a two-bedroom, 1,200-square-foot Craftsman bungalow in a modest neighborhood on Los Angeles’s east side. In 2018, Finneas bought a house of his own, but his childhood bedroom, abutting Billie’s, has long been their favorite place to make music. (Their parents, working actors who augmented their income with side jobs in construction and teaching, still sleep on a futon in the living room.) Finneas, facing a keyboard, listened as Billie talked about her dream, and together they figured out some chords to frame Billie’s deceptively upbeat opening line — “I had a dream I got everything I wanted.”
As they worked on the song, though, Finneas grew increasingly uncomfortable, then angry, and finally he refused to go any further. “We had this big argument,” Billie said. “Because I admitted something that I was, uh. It wasn’t a physical thing I was admitting. I don’t know how to put it without actually saying it, and I don’t want to actually say it. But it was me admitting to something that was very serious about my depression. A very serious step that I was admitting that I was planning on taking. And Finneas said, I don’t want to write a song about you killing yourself and how that’s everything you wanted!” Her parents caught wind of the argument and, along with Finneas, grew “insanely concerned,” Billie said. “It became this huge thing, and I locked myself in my room, and I was in there, just drawing on my wall.”
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My daughter introduced me to Eilish. My daughter and Eilish are the same age. I was very alarmed when my daughter told me about the inspiration for this song. Thank goodness she has a very supportive family and her music outlet, song writing and performing. I want to watch her career and listen to her for a long time.
Thank you so much for posting this.
like a Brubeck album cover
can you dig it?
imagine that
'm older too, at 66.
The comment "not her best" was just about this song, not her overall career or talent.
Thanks genius.
Understated, down tempo. Not without precedent.
Dreamy and lush.
Interesting how this song polarizes ratings and comments. Must be somethin' here.
I’m on Team No. I don’t see why she’s getting so much publicity and air play. There are thousands of singers out there that are better than this. And they write songs and have a real band. Not that I’m not open to new styles. I just don’t get it!!!!
But she and her brother are the band and they write their own songs. Two people aren't enough band members? Prince was a one man band. Perhaps you don't appreciate her technique as a singer or their instrumentation. But "proper" technique never made a successful singer or band.
I am old. Radio Paradise opens new music to me on a daily basis, expanding my appetite. My philosophy on music . . . does it sound good, invoke emotion, make me crave for more? yes, yes and yes.
You are most definitely a young soul!
Bless and LLRP
In my opinion this old is better mindset is nothing new as evidenced by the rise of "Classic Rock". But if you never want to turn into the "get off my lawn" guy you need to actively seek out new and interesting music. It can have so many benefits. For me Radio Paradise does just that. So from this 61yr old fart thanks Bill and Rebecca Long live RP...
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I am old. Radio Paradise opens new music to me on a daily basis, expanding my appetite. My philosophy on music . . . does it sound good, invoke emotion, make me crave for more? yes, yes and yes.
This shite is unbearable.
There are millions of young singers out there better than this talentless overhyped whispering no singing sleeping pill.
Thanks for ranting over your fears
should get used to it and stop
Come gather 'round people, wherever you roam
And admit that the waters around you have grown
And accept it that soon you'll be drenched to the bone
If your time to you is worth saving
Then you better start swimmin' or you'll sink like a stone
For the times, they are a-changin'
Come writers and critics who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide, the chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon, for the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who that it's namin'
For the loser now will be later to win
For the times, they are a-changin'
Come senators, congressmen, please heed the call
Don't stand in the doorway, don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt will be he who has stalled
The battle outside ragin'
Will soon shake your windows and rattle your walls
For the times, they are a-changin'
Come mothers and fathers throughout the land
And don't criticize what you can't understand
Your sons and your daughters are beyond your command
Your old road is rapidly aging
Please get out of the new one if you can't lend your hand
For the times, they are a-changin'
This shite is unbearable.
There are millions of young singers out there better than this talentless overhyped whispering no singing sleeping pill.
My feel is, Billie Eilish is one of those generation-defining voices you'll remember a couple decades from now.
She's that good to come....
So she sucks right now. Agreed.
So why play her right now?
I'm not sure you read that correctly.
Oooh. Cubism!
Not to be confused with the Dada art movement.
obviously doesn't know what cubism is.
This woman has a bright future.
Oooh. Cubism!
Not to be confused with the Dada art movement.
This 75-year old fart seconds that emotion. Thanks, B&R.... :)
My feel is, Billie Eilish is one of those generation-defining voices you'll remember a couple decades from now.
She's that good to come....
So she sucks right now. Agreed.
So why play her right now?
Good advice. Taking it right now..
In my opinion this old is better mindset is nothing new as evidenced by the rise of "Classic Rock". But if you never want to turn into the "get off my lawn" guy you need to actively seek out new and interesting music. It can have so many benefits. For me Radio Paradise does just that. So from this 61yr old fart thanks Bill and Rebecca Long live RP...
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This 75-year old fart seconds that emotion. Thanks, B&R.... :)
My feel is, Billie Eilish is one of those generation-defining voices you'll remember a couple decades from now.
She's that good, with more to come....
Funny, was just thinking that about your comment.
Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
I still like When I was older, I over heard on FM she's cutting her hair and changing her musical direction in 2021, excited to see what comes out of that!
For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.
I agree - interesting to hear... but 9 times in 30 days? I guess I have outgrown my tolerance for repetition...
Unless you listen to RP 24x7, it seems unlikely you heard all 9 plays. So why is it an issue?
Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
"Unique"? Hmph. I listened all the way through because I've heard her name enough to want to see what all the fuss is about. I didn't hear anything new or different that makes her stand out as "unique". Maybe that's what the florescent green hair is for.
For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.
I agree - interesting to hear... but 9 times in 30 days? I guess I have outgrown my tolerance for repetition...
Nine times in a month is about once every 3 days - Bill's collection is extensive so I do not understand why any song would be played so frequently. I am listening to RP more and more these days while working from home. I liked this song when I first heard it but I am getting tired of this song popping up on RP so often. It is a good song but I find myself hitting the skip button just because it is being played too much.
Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
The comment "not her best" was just about this song, not her overall career or talent.
Try playing it at 45.
33 is too slow.
For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.
I agree - interesting to hear... but 9 times in 30 days? I guess I have outgrown my tolerance for repetition...
Well, if we know anything at all, we know that advertising $$ works.
For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.
In my opinion this old is better mindset is nothing new as evidenced by the rise of "Classic Rock". But if you never want to turn into the "get off my lawn" guy you need to actively seek out new and interesting music. It can have so many benefits. For me Radio Paradise does just that. So from this 61yr old fart thanks Bill and Rebecca Long live RP...
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That's true it does fit right in. I like her music but i'm really confused at her incredible popularity. I don't find the music, or her voice, to be anything extraordinary. Obviously a lot of people do.
yeah this is a joke.
and what is even funnier is that Bill plays 6 songs from her - the same amount he plays from Velvet Underground.
Indeed!
Indeed.
Indeed.
Indeed.
or is just backed by a promoter
Kinda the opposite of that, actually. Almost everything she's done is just her and her brother with no outside input or "advice".
Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
I agree but my concern is in today's world where talent is no longer allowed to develop she will be dealt with in a way that will see her disappear from view.
And then cut it in half again.
Haters. Not everybody is an old fart (although I may qualify.) She's a young artist. Give her a chance to mature and she may surprise you.
And then cut it in half again.
New releases usually get more airplay for a while.
or is just backed by a promoter
9 plays in the last 30 days as of now. But I feel it is being played even more. I listen to RP for a couple of hours every day and it feels like this song gets played every time.
Though I like this song (gave it an 8) I like diversity even more.
Probably the first time I recognise hearing it; the other 8 plays must have drifted off into the ether where it belongs!
I don't 'get it' either? My daughter on the other hand thinks Eilish is amazing so it could be a generation gap thing?
What would they say instead?"
Yep.
It JUST came out like six months ago, but what even is time during the coronavirus?
Anyway, I dig it.